It's been more than one year since I restarted to studyEnglish. The reason why I study English is that I would like to emigrate to NewZealand in the future.
Recently, I've been focusing on the practice of pronunciation and phonation especially. This is because I hope I could convey my feeling to others clearly. Even though I don't mistake the grammar, what I say would not be understandable. Japanese phonation, accent and speak tone are totally different from English.
Having said that, I have one big problem aside from them. That is my embarrassment and fear of speaking English coming from my personality, perfectionism.
I'm going to talk about it today.
The Japanese do not tolerate mistakes?
I'm Japanese and grew up in an environment where to mistake is not tolerated. No one taught that we couldn't make mistakes but the environment implied that, I guess.
In Japan, there would be lots of places like this at least. That was as if we had to keep something the best score forever. It could be still same in the recently most of the companies.
I went to Australia for study abroad 5 years ago. I was really afraid of making mistakes in speaking. I felt so mush inferiority to other foreigners from Europe, South America and so on because their speaking sounded very natural and fluent for me even though their English was grammatically incorrect. Regarding only grammar, Japanese's one would be higher level than other countries' in average.
I didn't face my grammar, just see my weakness.
Do people care about other's languages?
I went to a lot of places, Australia, NewZealand, America, and except English countries, South America. I did use only English when speak people. However, no one made fun of me, my English.
Was it because of good luck? or being in a great environment?
I think both are wrong.
Few people make fun of me. Rather, people compliment me on my English when I have a basic conversation.
Moreover, what if one foreigner is speaking Japanese and the Japanese is not natural for me? I never make fun of them. I try to hear what they want to say.
I guess that's the way it is.
Let go of my embarrassment
For me, embarrassment stopped me to try to speak English. Some people would understand what I mean.
I can't change my bottom character so I will just take chances to speak, practice English and will be a confident speaker in the future. That would be one solution that I can get rid of an embarrassment. On the way, if I meet somebody making fun of me, I ignore them.
It is absolutely wonderful to study something.
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